addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
cross-country tmr. die.
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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i really really want to get this off my mind soon. it's taking up alot of emotional energy and mental focus. sigh. who knew things would get this messy?
tapered for training again. i don't know what i'm doing. hah. what am i doing?! xctry natls tmr. not like any of the previous years i've taken part in xctry natls. cos firstly, i haven't trained up for it. secondly, i don't feel prepared at all. wait i'm not prepared at all. thirdly, i have no idea how to view this race. like...how am i supposed to take it? jiaolian says take it as training. which makes sense. but after so many years of racing in inter-sch meets like this, it's almost by default that i set such high expectations of myself. hah. you know what? my standard has remained pretty much the same since sec one, sec two days. haha. amusing. but amusingly depressing.
what am i doing? :S taper here and there and everywhere i think i've forgotten how to do anything else. extremes... sometimes we taper alot, other times we train like crazy nuts. ahha.
darn. i'm really really. WTH-ed right now :(
i hope with all my heart that i won't screw up tmr.
RAFFLESIANS UNITE WE'LL SHOW OUR MIGHT :D
heh more for rj though... hope they get double champs! whee. and hopefully rg's cdiv will come through. quite good runners in that team...